improve my will power by doing something I dont want to each day.

I totally lack any self discipline, and really haven’t been doing this goal, I rarely get any applications done because I hate doing them so much, then I avoid, avoid, avoid with more fun activities. Haven’t done anything really creative either. Ack.

and I think its calling me to get back to creativity, I do feel stuck in a very ‘comfortable’ rut and I’m not really moving out of my comfort zone or making things happen, as everything’s up in the air and scary…

Artist’s Way should maybe get me out of a rut and help me get some discipline, find some connections.

So far I’m not going to touch the book for a bit.
I’m going to start with morning pages, the daily walk and the weekly artist’s date.

I think I wrote before that the walk was a new addition- there should be at least 2-3 20 minute walks and one hour long one. But I read somewhere else that it should be a daily 20 minute walk and nothing about an hour long one. Also no pets or partners. :( New puppy would have made that fun-but I guess that wouldn’t be a contemplative walk- more a NO! DONT! AWWW…type walk.

Also apparently you should write about your experiences on these walks.

First step- morning pages tomorrow. I’m lacking privacy at the moment. But maybe I can try going outside.

I’m interested in the Hip Tranquil Chick ‘method’ as well. Would be good to get going with some yoga as well as these walks and I think it ties nicely in with Buddhism and then meditation. All which I need to work on.

-one application done
=discovered the other one has a later deadline, but still need to work on it

Write my application forms: Two due tomorrow.

Read this article in the Times about a young playwright whose 22 and written two plays that have both been very well received, one’s even being studied in schools and at her old uni. She claims a great work ethic was the incentive behind her success (or something similar.) There’s a similar article here from the Guardian.

Oh and she wrote her first one at 19.

So if I master the do something I don’t want to do bit, maybe I’ll develop some sort of ability to get something done.

i wake up at 6 am every morning, and did summer geometry, 2 things a do not want to do. at all. it has improved my ability to do things i know i should

i do this everyday by waking up and going to work.
before work it was school.
this goal has been had been done for years :/

so yesterday i did good, i did my workout video for 30 minutes and then went running for 30 minutes :)

today i don’t want to do laundry, but i’m making myself do it cuz it’s TIME!

today i don’t feel like working out…but it’s monday and i MUST!! i havta do my work out tape right when i get off work today cuz i have an appt. at 7, and if i don’t do i right away i won’t do it…..so for today that’s what i’m making myself do to enforce that my other goals of taking care of myself and losing weight are met.

This has now been upped to doing 2 things each day I’m not particularly keeen on doing. AA tell me its the way forward.