lose weight for myself and no one else

So…I have to lose weight now. I have new medical problem popping up, and loosing weight will be one thing that will help this new problem. I found out that I have abnormal bone structure in my foot, and that’s causing extreme pain that makes me just want to cry daily! This makes it just that much harder for me to lose weight, because I’m just in so much pain that working out is really just out of the question… oivey.

So…yeah. I have new reason to lose some weight.

I think I’d like to weigh the weight that’s on my driver’s license. That whole weight proportionate to height crap is just that…crap. if I weighed 130 lbs (which i think is the weight for a 5’6” -er like myself)...I’d be pretty much dead. I have too much muscle, so really…180 is probably a great weight for me. yes…180 would be my weight goal. which is about 40 lbs. sized 10-12 is my size goal…that’s going from my curent size of 16-18.

No one can change who I am. Only I can change. SO this is something I do for me.