be aware

caught another one
I need people, I am looking out constantly at mail at chat
(I am hesitating a bit to write this, to admit openly but what the @#$% :P I also notice I have started using expletives in my head these days! ) at the online forums, checking blog for comments.
Its a kind of compulsion
well it could mean
1) I am not interested in work and I m looking for time pass options
2) I miss people I need more contact with people , interesting people.

I think second is more true, cause I check mail and comments etc even when I am in the middle of interesting browsing at home…
I am addicted to being constantly on chat from last 10 years.. it could be a hangover from that?

some imrovements happen and some just go into back burner, like the table idea… I am reading again and not studying like before. hmmmm
But I am moving this goal to done.. I am more aware than before. Only thing I need to do is check myself only when i angry or too excited. notice myself then

I have noticed my new attitude, I have this attitude to make changes to make things better for me.
simple things like I tried out all the web browsers and settled on apple safari. I hadnt done it in last 10 years.
I just downloaded foxit pdf viewier instead of arode acrobat. lot lighter than that and it allows zoom on full screen :-)
Its the attitude I like, I am thinking of making improvements , small ones. I love it :-)
the night table next to my bed is another example .
God please please keep this attitude alive in me :)
me – please keep this attitute alive in myself :o)

caught a few more problems just by being aware
one more important thing other than being aware is taking responsibility for all what u are feeling.
if you blame it on others u are giving away the power.
they are not getting into ur head and making u feel like this. they didnt create all the buttons by getting into ur head.
YOu have a choice about how u feel about things.
and if u feel good, good will happen to you.
when ever u get a thought think do I want my future to depend on “this” thought? if not say “OUT” to it :)

going is good. More aware of feelings able to deal with them better except when in PMS, but even then I am aware waht is happening tho I cant seem to control what is happening… yet. that will change the next PMS. :) I will just sail through it like a breeze.

louise has helped me iwth this, i find myself watchin my emotions more often then before.
thank u so much louise! you are just what i needed at this point of time :)
love you.

nice to see this goal here
I was forgetting being aware of myself and feeling the energy body, As i read new books I forget the old ones :)
Eckhart here I come.

this one is tough, I try to be aware and accept the pain. but the pain is getting the better of me.
I can totally relate to Eckhart tolle when he talks of the pain body. Its a deep seated pain, probably caused by phycisal problems in the brain like chemical imbalance rather than psycological problems. but not identifying with the pain and accepting it as part of now will work
I talked to my dad about it, he says in 2 months I should see results if I keep focus on the now. if I start being aware. That makes me feel better.
I dont understand time, I read theory of relativity but i am not able to grasp the subject. If we had a 5 minute memory, would we perceive time at all? time is a mere perseption?!? hmmm I am lost about this.

I noticed, I think of being aware only when I sad or angry :D that’s a nice way to get over the feeling and be more composed. but the ultimate goal is to be aware at all times, isnt it.
remind myself to be aware at all times, may be regular intervals, when I am happy sad neutral etc.
I do remind myself to be aware when I go for walks etc or when I sit in my garden and the weather is good… but not enough.

along with meditation, at all times I want to be aware of my feeling, my reaction to the feelings, the analyais of the feelings done by the mind etc etc.
generally be more aware of myself at all times. I will make an attempt at this at all times.