never lie

i could totally understand with your words. as i used to lie, just to hide the stupid things i’ve done, and wish people could have a good image of me. but that’s stressful, cuz i need to make a new lie to cover the old one. i hate this feelings, so i decided never lie again. but i’ve heard people saying once you are a liar, you will start lying all your life. is that true? i’ve 2 good friends who really never lied. i respect them!!! i know i am this kinda person they hate most, so i want to change myself. it’s not easy i know, but i want to! anyone has good suggestion on how to improve myself? i am so stressful when i facing myself, i hate myself!

I feel better. Life is not that complicated after all, isn’t it.

I’m doing better every day.
I’m not telling any lies it is just being economical with the truth sometimes.

Its not so much that I lie, its just I exaggerate things and as I am always trying to hide my past, I confuse it deliberately, does this make sense? I feel other people would never understand the simple truth and I would be judged, also it is too painful to be a source of discussion or gossip,
So recently I have been avoiding exaggerating and avoiding certain topics, I think one of my problems is I can also be painfully truthful, which I guess it kind of ironic since my goal is to never lie,

found out today that alot fo my good friends were in a huge scam at work. they were ripping off thousands of dollars from the company. it makes me feel very strange. i want nothing but honesty in my life. no matter how difficult it is. brutal honesty. beautiful, pure, honest.