life makeover

I am so stuck. I have to make plans. I have 7 months before I go home and I need to do so much. Start school, lose wight, I have tons of baggage. lol TONS. The problem with my baggage its buried. Buried under 20 extra “dealing with depression” pounds. My personality has changed. I am easily irritated, no self esteem… no drive. I am turning into a that bird that hides its head in the sand.. with everything. Bills and emotions. I guess I could be my own life coach. I wrote that somewhere, but it would be nice to have some man in full rambo get up to come in my bedroom and… he he… wake me up and make me move move MOVE! Well because I have no funds.. I guess I will make up and imaginary rambo.. or Ranger (from my fav book) To inspire me when I am feeling lazy.