break free

I can’t break free if i can’t stop being angry. I can’t stop being angry unless certain people stop getting away with everything, and pushing all the limits. People just keep pushing and pushing and pushing and I’m so angry i cant even vocalize to these people, im trapped in a nightmare. Its like i’ve been dreaming for 5 months and whenever I manage to pull all the shit together someone has to come and pull it all apart and destroy everything all my passion has gone in. I’m 22 weeks pregnant i wish these idiots would just give me a break and let me try to get on with my life and stop stealing and preventing me from achieving everything i want and know i can do.

I see the sun begin to rise
And I’m blinded too
I’ve seen the world through jaded eyes
That I’m crying through
I watch the darkness hypnotize
And can’t fight it
Hold On I’m falling
Can’t breathe anymore
As an ocean has opened
These scars need to heal over

Caress the needle prick in my eye
The tears fell like rain
I’ve rode the phoenix as she glides
And I’ve gone insane
I’ve seen the light of suicide
And I’m dying

Hold on, I’m falling
Can’t breathe anymore
As an ocean has opened
These scars need to heal over

Hold on I’m falling, can’t breathe… breathe…

Colder and colder
Just hold onto me

I want to break free
I want to break free
I want to break free from your lies
Youre so self satisfied I don’t need you
Ive got to break free
God knows God knows I want to break free

Ive fallen in love
Ive fallen in love for the first time
And this time I know it’s for real
Ive fallen in love yeah
God knows God knows Ive fallen in love

Its strange but it’s true
I can’t get over the way you love me like you do
But I have to be sure
When I walk out that door
Oh how I want to be free baby
Oh how I want to be free
Oh how I want to break free

But life still goes on
I can’t get used to living without living without
Living without you by my side
I don’t want to live alone hey
God knows got to make it on my own
So baby can’t you see
Ive got to break free

Ive got to break free
I want to break free yeah

I want I want I want I want to break free….

I’m sick of him.
I don’t want to love him!
:(

finally starting to see some light at the end of this deluged tunnel. Being on this holiday has definately got me thinking about where i’m going in life and where i want to be. I’m more able to differentiate my passions, likes, and intrigues from what career i would like in life. It’s a good feeling to finally be able to see some clarity. I hope i can gather more clarity throughout returning home at the end of the week.
:)

I want to break free
I want to breeak free
i want to break free from your lies you’re so self satisfied i don’t neeeeeeeeed you.
I’ve got to break free.

I want to stand out

cant wait to achieve this. cannot wait.
i know i can do this.
i just have to make them stop manipulating me back to them.

if it werent for loving, i would be free already…

my boyfriend and I broke up and he moved out. that is the first step in breaking free from this life. I need to make some serious decisions about what I am going to do with my house and where I want to live. this is going to be hard. but necessary.

I’m outside the box. :)