mean something to someone

i feel no one will ever love me though….

so i’m totally in love with my bf, but thinking back over the past 2 and a half years together, i’m not sure if he truly truly loves me, he gives me the feeling that we are temporary and that he will want someone new once he reaches a new chapter in his life. i want to be that one person he will love forever but i know its naive to think like that as i’m still young and yet to experience other loves. i just want to mean as much to him as he does to me… i’ve been waiting a long time for it to happen, i don’t know if it ever will..

All my friends say i mean everything to them and two of them especially. But i’m still at school and i know that there will be a day when we will see each other for the last time: and it’s not too long away. Everyone says we’ll always be friends but we won’t. So oneday i will mean fuk all to them.

Even Steven and Paul as much as i love them !!!!
So i want to mean something to someone forever….. really mean something.

i used to think that i meant something to my ex, but well she’s my ex now so i guess i really didnt mean that much to her. i bet in all actuality i still mean SOMETHING to her, just not as much as i once did. in spite of this i do have a few really good friends that i would be lost without. i ve know theese guys for like 11 years, and i dont think that they are going any where any time soon. so even though my ex is…well my ex, i still know that there are people in this world that i mean a great deal to, and thats all that really matters

Just..not the way I would hope to.

I have friends and family that I mean the world to and they mean the world to me. It’s nice knowing that you have people that care about you.