Get over my crippling shyness

today i walked home from work, which i don’t usually do. it took over an hour, not walking fast but walking continuously. it seemed to take forever but i distracted myself by listening to my mp3 player.

since grade 6 (7 years) i’ve been working on getting over my shyness. i write in my journal (a blog nobody knows about works well too) because then i can look back when it seems like there’s no improvement and realize that yes i’ve improved.

Make no mistake. I’m still shy. But this time last year, if ask which seemed more frightening, bungie jumping or talking to a stranger; I’d have chosen the latter.

He sure was chatty. We talked about books, music and gift cards. You know, I grew up in the 80’s, so talking to strangers feels a little wrong but still, it was good practice. It felt awkward in the beginning but I loosened up a little as the conversation went on.

I need to get over this shyness, because it’s holding me back from actually enjoying life and living it… I’ve lost so many possibilities because of being so shy…

Wow! Last week I was all alone in this goal and now I have all this company.

I’ve been told 4x’s this week that I need to make this a higher priority.

I’ve been here nearly a month and I haven’t made one friend. I’ve had plenty of oppurtunities (being invited places) but my shyness gets in the way. Sometimes I think I even give off the impression I dislike people. I don’t know what to do.