Get My Pap Smear

Yesterday. So there. Mind you, it took a still unresolved medical problem to get me to march myself in there, but I don’t have to do that for another two years.

Just do it girls.

I do want to get that letter giving it the all clear though because something’s not right and I think that’s the scariest.

I have better things to do on my last day off.

directly with my goal not to procrastinate! I’m so strung about this from the obstacles that have blocked me twice already. There’s an opportunity to do this tomorrow at the same medical centre that let me wait an hour and a half last week for an appointment that the receptionist didn’t even register, even after having had my Medicare card and updating my details on the computer.

I have visions of Michael Douglas in Falling Down translating to the doctor’s surgery when someone yet again prevents me from screening myself from cervical cancer… seriously…

that this has to become a goal. I’m so angry.

It’s been three years since my last, so I’m a year overdue, but I’ve been prevented from doing it on two occasions and NOW I’M ANGRY because this is a basic neccesity and it’s hard enough without other people failing to do their blooming job.

Months ago I said to myself that I was just going to do it. I’d procrastinated because there’s no female doctor at my medical centre anymore, but I thought bugger it, I’ll bite the friggin bullet because I have to.

I got to my medical centre… it was closed for some family emergency. Bugger that, I thought, and turned and went to the one down the street. I’m going to GET THIS DONE.

I waited… the doctor on duty was an older doctor and seemed nice, so he’s been-there-done-that and this will be done and I’ll be fine.

But no… he back-peddled faster than I could have done and said he shouldn’t do it because he was just a locum, not one of the doctors at this surgery. The spineless fraud. And he called himself a doctor. Even I could give myself the darn PAP smear with the new thin-prep scraper… it’s not that hard! You scrape some cells, you send them off for analysis! For crying out loud!

I went home, just a happy not to have some stranger poking around where they shouldn’t be poking around, but angry that I had been strong and stepped up to have this done only to be knocked back by a dithering incompetent doctor.

Months along, my medical centre employs a nurse a day a week specifically to do PAP smears and breast exams… great, I’m not the only one who’s been holding out because it’s uncomfortable presenting to a male doctor to do this (not to mention being LET DOWN already). I make an appointment after work and rock up on time.

I wait. Patients for the doctors come and go. I get into an all-in discussion with four other patients in the waiting room, much to my enjoyment, despite the lady with pneumonia who wouldn’t cover her mouth when she coughed.

I wait. I start to notice people who arrived after me are seeing the doctor and leaving. I’ve been waiting for an hour and a half and the place closes in an hour. I get up and ask the receptionist about my appointment with the nurse.

The receptionist looks startled. She checks my appointment then checks to see if my chart was waiting in the nurse’s waiting pile. Then I’m informed the nurse has just left… someone must have put my file away… would I like to make another appointment next week?

You’ve got to be kidding. I’m pretty sure the receptionist grabbed the wrong file (some other patient was called and wasn’t in the waiting room) or didn’t grab my file at all when she asked me to sit and wait.

No… I had an appointment. I did not want another. Why can’t I just get my freaking PAP smear done.

I might have slammed the sliding door a little when I left.

I am angry. Incompetent people doing incompetent jobs. There’s no consequences for their bungling. Usually these people are employed in government departments… but I forget… they’re EVERYWHERE.

One word baby… karma…

I still have to have this thing done.

Yayy I Did It... I Had My Appointment Today And It Went Pretty Good. I Love My New Ob/Gyn She Is Very Nice And Very Good At What She Does. I Got The New HPV Vaccination While I Was There So I Am Pretty Stoked About That… I Am So Proud Of Myself For Finally Going… And I Am Happy That It Is Finally Over… Until Next Year Anyway, LOL :)

I Go Tomorrow…. I Am Very Nervous And Scared…. I Haven’t Had A PAP In About 6 Years :( I Have Lots Of Questions To Ask My Doctor….. I Have My Fingers Crossed That Everything Goes OK…

I just had to slip into my happy place, but its kinda hard to stay there while your being cranked open infront of God and everybody. A necessary evil though, and to think, I have the honor of having this done once a year.

your prayers and your well wishes. Thank you special person for the text messages and pictures designed to make me laugh.

It will be almost three weeks before I get the results.

I have to have some other test run. Lab work, test for
{endometriosis}.
I have to have a mammogram.

So looks like Seren gets to see more Dr’s.. and More needles.. OH what fuckin’ joy.

Today is the Exam. I will not find anything out today, it will still be another week.

I reserve the right to not share the results with anyone.
I have made the promise to only two people, I will keep my word. I am big on promises.. I will not break those.

Depending on what they tell me, I won’t post it.

I am very nervous. I am scared, I have been going through some real difficult emotional things lately. I’ve never felt this way before and it is only compounding everything else in my life. I am just scared.. So much is at stake..

Ahhhh…. sigh, double… Time to get ready to spread ‘em.

It was only the loose skin under my chin that looked like a VAGINA!!!!