not let work stress me out

Been exercising or tring to do things for myself after school. Especially after an especially hard day. I hate to ask the question – can I stick it out? Or better yet – can I learn to love my job?

my boss is an ASSHOLE!! i’m trying to weigh the pros and cons of this job, and having to deal with her, and it’s all very confusing. i don’t have to wear a suit. the view is amazing. the pay is good. I CAN’T STAND MY BOSS AND HER VINDICTIVE NEUROSES.

i’m over this. my boss has gone from buddybuddy to biggest bitch in the playground, total psychopathic personality change. i guess i should have seen it coming, she bitched to me about every one here, so why should i be exempt?

ripping on me for being 5 minuts late. hating my fkn guts every time i sneeze. zero tolerance for illness and family emergencies. i’m looking for a new job. i can’t wait to get away from her :)

i love my boss, but sometimes we don’t see eye to eye and she pulls rank on me, and/or treats me like i’m a kid who knows nothing. being a small business, we work so closely together, and it really gets to me, sometimes really upsetting me, when she does this and still somehow thinks that everything’s fine.

the irony is that her boss is treating her the way she has treated me… she’s not very happy, i’ll tell you that much.

New job coming up! Teaching high school and directing ASB next year. I’m really looking forward to it (and I don’t remember really honestly looking forward to school for a while). Enjoying the remainder of my time with the little sixth graders. I wonder if I’ll even recognize them when I have some of them in my classes again in 3 years.

It is taking a lot of work these days to keep the negative, exhausting and hopeless thoughts and feelings out of my mind. It’s just apply, apply, apply and wait to hear back from someone jobs for next year. I think I’m driving my boyfriend crazy. Teaching is tough, let alone the energy required to apply for jobs (especially if some of the jobs you are applying for are at your own school!). I just keep telling myself that it is going to happen. I’m just not sure when or where. It will happen.

Received my pink slip last week. I shouldn’t be suprised, because I have been a temp. employee, but I was hoping it would come with a “we’d really like to have you reapply.” It did not. It didn’t come with anything. I don’t know if they want me back or not. Meanwhile, I am applying for another district job teaching 5th grade. It makes me feel better that something else is out there. It is so tough to find a teaching job in this area!!! Otherwise, I left school behind today. OK, I accidentally left all my stuff at school, but still. It will be a lovely evening.

I came down with the flu this week and was out all week. And you know what? Nothing happened. My sub report wasn’t aweful. Not too many angry emails went missed. And I had the chance to heal and recover from the puking and fever. I am important to my job, but it will go on without me. (and my kids were glad to see me back =)

Planning ahead and getting enough sleep has definately made this week better than last. I have fewer issues to take home with me at the end of a day.

Between teaching middle school kids and dealing with their parents, its tough to leave it behind at the end of the day, but that is just what I am working on. I am trying to get whatever I can done at school so when I get home, I dont’ have to think about it all. This is sometimes easier said than done, but I’m working on it!