fall in love again

There’s no greater feeling. From the moment you wake to the moment you sleep. Everyday is filled with an intense and passionate purpose and belonging. Nothing else matters because anything is possible with this feeling…

I have met someone online, and we have been emailing for a couple of weeks. We’ve now moved to talking on the phone in addition to emailing, and tonight he instant messaged me after we talked. We’re having fun, flirting like teenagers, laughing a lot, and enjoying each other. I will meet him on July 10 in Seattle before I leave on the cruise with friends. One day at a time… I am cautiously optimistic.

So now i want to do it the right way this time. i want to add it to my list because it does not just mean fall in love with a man, which would be nice, but to fall in love with something or someone. I know it is out there waiting on me, as i am waiting on it. I put it on my list so that when it happens , and this time i will make sure it is not a fluke or a lie, that i can chaeck it off and hopefully never have to put it on my list again.

I have added and removed this entry at least 20 times in one day. I’m kind of embarrassed by it. I’m not quite sure I want to do this again. Maybe I would like to experience the feelings but not a person attached to it?

I’m going to let the goal ride for now and just live with the embarrassment of admitting this.

There was some mutual attraction between myself and a co-worker…but I decided I’d much rather have friends than a boyfriend (I’m not ready for that, with anyone – I have too much going on in my life already).

However, the main thing I got from crushing on this guy was, there is life and love after the last soul-destroying crush I had. And, I realised how much I’m enjoying my freedom! So, even though we didn’t end up together, I’m still saying it was worth it for the things it taught me. And, I made a new friend! :D

I think it might happen. The circumstances are so complicated though that I’m sad and frustrated.
I thought I would never feel like this again in my life… especially since it’s even more powerful than the one time I was really in love…

I have fallen out of love. How do I know this to be true? I am afraid to admit my love openly to other people. I refuse to introduce my significant other as a boyfriend or lover. I am afraid to tell him I love him over the phone when there are other people present. Does this sound like love to you? Well it does not to me. I feel helpless.

I want 2 trust in someboday else
Forget about the past and all the pain
i dont wanna think in her again
i just want a new love that cant get aout of my head

i haven’t been on this in forever, so i honestly don’t know who i loved that long ago…i’ve been in love and fallen out of love with the same person..i don’t even know how many times. this person has changed my life, and i’ve learned so much about myself in the process. and despite the fact that whenever i think about him i want to fucking stab him, i’d like to say thank you for fucking me over, because it made me a stronger person.

how does one begin to find love….?