fall in love with a good guy

How things change so quickly..
So my last entry was about a nice guy, who had a girlfriend, Well I met his friend, and it was instant Friends, and now we are seeing each other.

It is unusual for me to feel so comfortable so quickly.

i feel I can tick this one off… I’m in love

BUT he is already taken.
Oh well we are great friends and I am happy I have him in my life.

There will be someone out there who is Single and just as lovely… but where?

I think he is going to have to find me and pursue me, cuz it is too nervewracking for me to fall first!

went to this little train ride with the kids today, they had a guitar player afterwards who played all the stuff I love, and I sang along. I think I could fall for that guy! I go see him play this week… I have no idea about what he thought of me, as I feel so fat and old… but hey… I loved the music and get to see him play again! He looked right in my eyes when he sang, fun!

my husband IMed me and wants to talk more.
we shall see. I love him, that is no doubt there.
I have to make sure that I let him talk and not ramble on or be too nice.
I know I was too nice in the past, spoiled him.
we have been separated about 3 yrs I think now.
3 and a half.

I’ve been hurt so many times.
And for some reason I ignore the warning signals with some guys and just fall deeper and deeper in love with the commitment phobe.

I need to find someone decent

He is such a good guy. Is sooo good to me but doesn’t spoil me and does what’s best for me. He acknowledges when he’s wrong and points me out when I’m wrong. I am trying my best to not take him for granted and I thank God every day that he is in my life. He never gives me less than his best and I still pick fights with him. We are planning our wedding for September of ‘09!

my husband and I have been separated for 4 yrs, we are starting to email a little. and text( yeah i knnow) but it is new and different to have any communication at all.
who knows.

even though I am still only separated and still love my husband dearly, he does not want to /cant be with us. He lives out of state and we see him one or 2 days in the summer when he comes up with his girlfriend, stays at his moms.
I fell in love with him at first sight, he had problems but we discovered 5 yrs later they are arteriovenous malformations in his brain.
so… it is unpredictable and makes him feel bad, not much self control, and he self medicates with alcohol etc.
I had to tell him to go when he was violent.
it hurt me, and i still miss him, but had to do that.
I pray for a miracle, yet I still feel selfishly, that I want someone new to help me and to love me…
especially cuz we have to move this summer, it is on my shoulders ,,, It is stressful and I get scared. dont sleep well.
I know another man is not the answer to all my problems, but a nice one, hey he might be!

never have but i want to..