move on with my life

last night i cried myself to sleep, it was a sad time. but i have to try hard and move on with things and forget the past i guess but at the moment im having trouble accepting things. it still feels surreal

I have been seperated from my husband for 2 months, will be getting a divorce soon as money is available. I feel like I am allways starting over and I am just tired. Please help me!

I feel like I haven’t owned my life for over 2 years, probably more. Answering to the “establishment” hiding from life, people, keeping it very safe (isolated) just my tight knit circle.
Enough now, I’ve found something that I’m excited about and had many supports over the last couple years that have helped me see my life differently. Thank God for my therapist, and every article or group I’ve associated with.
Moving on would mean going for it…really stepping out of my comfort zone, telling all the underminding thoughts to SCREW OFF, a go for it. No what if’s.
I want to have the say and design my life the way I want. There are only somethings within my control and I need to let go of the outcome because, who really really knows??
I know someone who has decided to live this year in “yes” as much as possible.

What is the first move in the direction I wish to go?

The mistakes I have made and the people I hurt will be with me forever. Time heals all wounds even as deep it this one.

It’s a hard thing to do…..... Just if everyone would stay out of my business! I love my husband, and want us to just move far, far away where we can never be found!

I need to realize that it’s time to move on. Obviously choices were made months ago that I must come to terms with.

My health is again poor, I have no job, very little money, the broken promises, the threats of never seeing her again….

For months I have put this off and even tried to forget it even happened. I just thought he was that guy. I mean, we were SO fricken happy for so long but in reality it was a one sided thing for many months.

Well, come to find out for longer than I thought.

I know it’s not gonna be easy to finally face the truth of everything that was involved but I need to find some kind of peace with it.

I know by doing this I may lose her too and I don’t know if I’m ready yet but I’m forced to try. I can only hope she will remember me when she is older.

As for him, he forgot about me months ago. Well, he SAYS he hasn’t but actions speak volumes and last night I got the message loud and clear.

I hate this but I suppose when your so far down like I am now it can only get better. Right?

I can only hope.

i’m proud to say that i’ve done this. it took several months of pain, tears, poems, letters and countless hugs from family and friends but i did it. yey! growing up may be the hardest thing to do but it’s definitely worth every second of pain. you plan your life and it doesn’t turn out the way you want it to..and discovering this hurts so much. the important thing is you learn everytime you stumble.

i need to realize that he’s not a part of my life anymore… but it seems like such a strange concept, almost surreal, and i can’t really believe it

i need to move on, focus on other things and make myself happy

i need to get over him..im addicted to him..and its not good for my health…

I’ve been separated from my husband for a year. I feel like I’m in the movie “Groundhog’s Day” as nothing is changing. I’m afraid to go either way, besides, finances aren’t such that I could do so even if I knew what to do! How do others make this decisio? Was there a defining moment when you just knew? And how did you arrive there?