mean as much to people as they mean to me

lately I’ve been finding friends who TOTALLY ADORE me. hah.
It feels so nice..

and those who don’t really care about me?
well, I’ve been trying to forget them.
If they don’t totally love me, then screw them. Yeah, I’ll talk to them still, and I’ll still like them..
but I won’t get all worked up over it.

Of course, the friends that love me.. they’re not people who live around me.
It seems like everyone who lives around here only cares about themselves.
My best friends I meet online.
.. That may sound weird, I guess.. but.. I wouldn’t give them up for anything.
They’re REAL best friends, minus the fact that I get to hug them and have sleepovers and stuff with them.
One day I will, though. ;] I’ll go meet themmm.

I care about my friends so much.
but they don’t seem to care about me the same way..
I’m always second best..
there’s always someone they’d rather spend their time with..
and it hurts like mad.