get over him for real

Okay, I’ve sent him a text message saying:
I love you…
But my love is not enough.

And that alone, made him upset and he went away.
Then two days later, I sent him an email explaining my reasons, just to make things clear. So I texted saying”
Check your inbox if you had the chance.

He texted a long message back saying bullshit and crap. So I texted back saying:
I wish you never came back!

Then that was it. He acted like a jerk! I don’t want us to be back together, but I care about him so much. All what I wanted is to leave each other with a good nice memory with no grudges. But he doesn’t deserve it. He just wants me back and if I’m not back with him he’s be all pissed and upset. He has no consideration to my situation!

Next month is our anniversary. I hope he NEVER contacts me EVER AGAIN! I was doing fine and great and I was happy and moving on bit by bit. Then after 4 months he comes back! And messes things up!

He’s out of my life for good!

Last phone call: 1st of November…
Last text message: 5th of November…

Here we start again!... Get over him for real, Neda!

He kept trying to get me back for 3 or 4 days. He kept trying to convince me and he was very kind and sweet. But as usual, and typical of me. I kept pushing him away.

The last text message I sent him was:
“I love you…
But my love is not enought.”

The reasons which make me push him away are just too much to deal with. They are so many that I can barely enumerate them. I need to state my reasons, that might help me to think things over.

I told him that I wasn’t strong enough to face the world.
And after that last text, he just went away.

I wonder if he’ll be back again. He’s a really stubborn person if he wants something, then he won’t back off.

But after this, I realized how much he loves me. I wondered if I would find a guy so special like him, or is he the one. Is God testing me? Is God testing us? My love?

Everything happens for a reason, I strongly believe in that. But I don’t know what’s the reason behind all of this.
I thought it might be because God has sent him to me to save me from the troubles that I was going to face. I had some shit load of problems that could simply end my life, and he was there to save me.
OR
To learn some lessons about relationships. And gain experience out of life that I used to seriously lack. I learned from him so much the last 2-3 years.

He beleives in that statment too. “Everything happens for a reason.”
He told me that we were meant to be together. We had a remarkable relationship and we’ve over come so much together. We’ve over come so much together and our relationship was stronger than ever. Then I eventually just left him for my “several many uncountable reasons”.

After 102 days since I last heard his voice…
He contacted me and called me! Suddenly!

I was taking baby steps towards my goal “Getting over him for real”.
Now he’s ruining it all!

He kept calling from 27 october till 29 october and I didn’t answer. He texted me until I finally replied. And I shouldn’t have. Now he’s demanding to see me again and I can’t do that. At first he was mean and cruel and acting like an asshole which really surprised me, cause it was so not like him. So I texted him saying something like this:
“You never cared about me, I found out that since I’ve known you, you were just playing games on me. You never never cared about me and I never meant a thing to you!”

I know it’s not true, but I was pissed off. He then texted and this time he stopped being a jerk saying:
“I want to talk to you quitely no threats no bad words just talk truthfully. Didn’t you say talk, I want to talk.”

Then we talked on the phone and he sounded sad. He tried to convince me to get back to him and that he still kept thinking about me everyday. I thought he really forgot about, seems like I was mistaken. He told me about his mother and father and their reaction when they found out that I left him. He told me that he still loves me. I tried to convince him and explaining my reasons over and over again but he didn’t seem to care, he just wanted me back. He said that we’d get engaged now if that what it takes to get me back. I refused, I do still love him, but my reasons are much stronger. Then eventually I told him that I had to hang up cause I had to sleep and I have college in the morning. He said, “Neda…?”
Me, “Yes?”
He said, “I love you”
Me, “Good night”
And I hang up.

I love him, but I can’t get back to him. No way!
I’ve moved on with my life. And I’m doing great. But I’m not over him.

He just wouldn’t understand the fact that I DO NOT WANT HIM BACK!

He’s still calling and texting until now and I’m just ignoring.

It has been 106 days since I last saw him.
It has been 87 days since his last phone call.
It has been 68 days since his last text message.

I’m doing really great, in life in general. I seem more happy more outgoing, everything is just going towards the best. But I still think about him from time to time. Not as much as I used to, but I still do miss him. I think I am actually moving on. But perhaps it might need more time to completely forget about him. Or maybe forget him a bit more, I don’t think it’s possible to forget him completely.

I wonder if he still thinks about me.
I wonder if he misses me. :(

I’ve known him for about three or two years. We were really close and really loved each other. To be honest, he loved me more than I loved him. Everyone knew that. But it does not change the fact that I did love him alot. He wasn’t just my bf. He was my friend, my best friend. He was always there for me and took care of me as much as he could. He was a good guy, a special guy.

I doubt if I would ever find someone like him. If I found someone who loves me half of the love that he had towards me I would be the luckiest girl on earth. Someone told me once that I only loved him for how he loved me. I don’t think that’s really true. I did love him. But it was a forbidden love, an impossible one.

He never left me, but I did over and over again. ‘Cause I knew we were going to no where. He wanted to be with me “forever” and marry me someday. I knew it was impossible dew to our background differences. Each time I would leave him I would miss him so much and get back to him. The longest time that we didn’t hear each other’s voices is two days! That was the maximum, we were so attached to each other. We were crazy about each other.

But two months ago, I just had it. I didn’t want to continue in a relationship with no future. My family and people won’t let us end up together. Even if we did, it won’t be easy.

So two months ago I left him. He kept waiting for me and trying to get me back for a whole month! It was sad and depressing. Then he suddenly stopped. He disappeared. He blocked me on msn and facebook and probably chaged his cell phone number.

I’ve hurt him so much though he’s a good guy and was always sweet and kind to me.

Eventually he just gave me what I wanted. I miss him, I still think about him everyday. I want to forget him and move on.

I went on a vacation to Mexico in 2001 with some girl friends. We were staying in the same hotel and I had met his friends but had yet to meet him even though I saw him around.
On the second last night we finally met. I never expected to meet anyone on vacation let alone someone who lived in the same country as I did! We briefly talked about a long distance relationship. He left for home a day before I did and I was eager to get home to be in contact. We kept in contact with emails and the occasional phone call.
Over the years he had a couple of girlfriends but we remained friends. I was convinced that I was the girl for him and he was the guy for me even though he wasn’t willing to try a long distant relationship. I should have seen the signs early on but I think I was in denial. I tried to cut him out of my life numerous times but always seemed to end up communicating with him again. About two years ago he got married to someone he met on a vacation (how ironic). I continued to try to get him out of my life but at the same time I thought he married the wrong woman. I was open with my feelings and he knew the way I felt about things and often found it difficult to be friends with him. Although he was now married there were often times where we were flirty and inappropriate with one another. It’s been 7 years of this and I need to move forward in my life. I feel as though this so called friendship is holding me back and I continue to give myself false hope with this now married man! So I told him that I needed to move on and he respected my decision. I always come crawling back but this time I want it to be different! There has to be someone out there for me!!

Day 1. Lets Go…!

I am on Day 28 of NO CONTACT. I haven’t heard his voice, felt his skin, smelled the nape of his neck..etc etc in 28 days. I changed my phone number so he could not call me and hurt me any more. But when the phone rings, I still look at it…then I remember. Oh yeah! NC! Nobody tells me what I am supposed to do on Day 61. And KnowingBurns, how did you do it? How long did it take? Do you just feel like he is any random person when you speak to him? What did you do,to get to where you are? PLEASE RESPOND, you are the first person I’ve read that posted a realistic yet positive conclusion.Lulu

I don’t know how long ago I did this, but recently the guy in question managed to have the luck to get me as his customer service rep when he called in to the call center where I work. We caught up briefly, and then we ended up talking online a few nights that week. I realized not only am I over him, but I am finally over what he did to me. We may even get to be friends again one day.

lets see next year.