Stop Drinking Alcohol

I think I will make this more…limit my drinking to the rare glass of wine with friends. I don’t want to drink beer anymore but I don’t think I should eliminate altogether. Moderation etc…

After several attempts at staying sober strictly on my own willpower, I hit the wall again. Each time seems to be worse. I know that any recovery that is going to stick will need me to supplement my own strength with a 12 step program. I am beginning meetings this week in hopes that it will stick. I look at some of my old posts and try to remember what a beter life it is without alcohol. To be more peaceful and healthy and happy has to be more enjoyable than a constantly racing mind, a churning stomach, a sloppy appearance and an unsharpened mind.

Most of my life, I have been exposed to my mother drinking. Mostly in the evening and often in excess. When I questioned her as a teen, I was told that she had sought treatment, but she was told she is not an alcoholic because she only drinks at night. I now have my mother’s habit and have been telling myself that, since I only drink in the evenings, I don’t have a problem. However, the thought of not having alcohol in the evening now seems impossible. I truly enjoy relaxing with alcohol, but often don’t stop until I’m sleeping. I want to quit drinking for 30 days and see how I feel, but am uncertain whether I should go “cold turkey”, or wean myself off. There are many things in my life which are not going well and, I am beginning to question the role alcohol plays.

Most addiction start of with a person saying, “I’ve got it under control. I’m not an addict”. Well, I don’t drink often, but most vices that are too availible to me become a bad habit. I’m not around it right now, but I do enjoy the occasional drink now and again. I think if I cut it out completely, I could feel better about myself.

Husband and I got through one night without drinking and it was a success! We’ll try again tonight!

I decided not to drink last night and I followed through on it. I had to change my routine from sitting at my computer in the kitchen to reading a book in bed. I let my husband know when he came home from work that I wouldn’t be drinking anything tonight so he didn’t offer me a drink. I feel so good this morning, my head is clear and I don’t feel like sleeping all day. I’m going to do something fun today. I’ve decided not to drink tonight too!!!

I want take a break from drinking. I want to start TODAY!!! I drink every evening and I’m always so tired in the morning. I end up sleeping way too much and it ruins my day.

Today, like so many other days lately, I am once again hung over and feeling like shit. My husband is a heavy beer drinker and has been for years. Before I met him two years ago, I drank occasionally, but never saw it as a problem. After I met him, it wasn’t long before I was joining him in his drinking. Being from Boston, we spent many an afternoon and evening at the local Irish pub putting down pint after pint. Pretty soon my tolerance was through the roof. We moved to Texas about a year ago and the behavior has only gotten worse. On any given day, we usually start drinking beer in the back yard at about 6 or 7pm and do not stop until maybe 1 or 2am. By this time, we have usually killed AT LEAST 6 or 7 beers each. Many times it is much more. I was astonished a few weeks ago when the 2 of us finished off a 24 pack. I really don’t know how we will quit this horrible habit. I do know that we both need to do it together. I fear that it is such a habit now that I will not know what to do with myself once alcohol is out of the picture. But, it has to stop.

i would love to stop drinking.

can’t seem to.

on average, i consume 18 beers a night. most of my thought revolve around “i could be so much better if i didn’t drink. you need to stop. you will feel differently tomorrow morning (you’ll be drinking again).”

is there any advice? not that i’ve seen.

i’m only killing myself.

I have been socialising with the work people which involves heavy drinking 1-2 nights a week and drinks at lunch time. Not really my scene anymore. I’ll work on hanging out with them without the drinking and eating.