stop using drugs

I am addicted to crystal meth… i haven’t done it in about 3 weeks and i hope i don’t go back to it… it is on my mind 24/7 and even certain smells remind me of it and make me want it more. I’m hoping that if i go without it long enough the craving will go away

I’ve been on crack five years stopped that, then used coke and drunk liquor for 4 years nearly 5 now weekly. In the morning I feel like shit. I promise myself that’s it. THEN… miss it then do it again a couple of days later. I have ups and downs ups and downs. It’s taking a toll on my mind. When I’m not on it my mind suggests just a 20. Yeah right. Then all night. I wonder how I can leave crack to replace it with another addiction. I been to many rehabs. My brain likes to do it then hates it. I can understand why people just end it. I wish there was a cure. Some people just dont understand how bad this is. I lost my zeal for life drugs really kill your ambition at least mine. I would love to wake up and not have a craving or even remember how coke feels. Ya feel me?

It feels good to be finally getting this out, uncensored… basically I started taking drugs when I was very young; weed and acid, then moving onto morphine and heroin from 17 years old. I was a user for two years and then fell pregnant, so stopped using and was clean… never went back – to that drug at least. I went to uni and am now a full time working prof, and my son is now 8. Throughout my time as a parent, I’ve been a recreational drug user – sometimes but not often. However, I recently moved to the UK, where drugs are very cheap and accessible , and have found my intake increasing, bit by bit. Its on the weekends only, but I fail to see why I am still doing it. I feel this MASSIVE urge to change my life, to start being what I actually am meant to be, and to be a good role model. I am finding that my drug use is having a negative impact on extended family members, and have been unable to see them as I feel constantly guilty about the way I am living my life. My boyfriend is in the same boat as me, but younger and without the responsibility, so I don’t expect for him to want to not take drugs again ever. I just want to be able to go out and have fun WITHOUT drugs, or even alcohol, but I feel that every weekend something comes along and I get involved – especially if I’ve had a drink or two. I know I’ve done this before and can stop, but I really feel like it’s slipping out of my control. I don’t like who I am when I’m on the comedown, and believe that I need to use the insights as a basis for self improvement, but am unsure of the path to take. I say that I hate being judged, but the reality is I judge myself and I feel like shit, thus extending the cycle of ‘feeling shit about my life’. I feel increasingly alone, and keep getting a sense that what I am doing is wrong. I dont’ even take much, but it’s still too much.

WHere to start?

ive snorted coke for almost 8 yrs on a weekly and sometimes daily basis. the things i have lost because of my addiction have caused me to realize that it is time to stop before it is my life i will lose. it’s hard i haven’t used since the 11 of march and this has probably been the longest sober period in my life in over 4 years everyday i want to go buy some but some how everyday i dont and sometimes i’m mad about it and other times im happy i didnt get any. i know the battle is just beginning and it will get easier with time.

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I would like to know how others have stopped using. I’ve been doing it so long now it just seems routine. I a very functioning drug and alcohol abuser. I hide it well. But not from myself and in my heart I want to stop so badly. Any advice?

But I don´t know how…
If we use to do this, how to stop? It´s like stop drinking or stop going to the places we use to go…it´s hard!!!
We need to change our acts, our minds, our friends, our way to see the life. Accept to go out with people we know he/she doesn´t use drugs, go to the movies, to read books, to travel…
I feel I need to fell crazy…just who use some drug, understands what I say…
I can´t see a way to change all this things,’cause I have to change all my life to stop to.

Although greatly recovered, I want to stop the addictive behavior that goes along with doing drugs. Some I used occasionally, some I used a lot. I’ve quit using weed, cocaine, black tar heroine, ecstasy, morphine, oxycotton, other hallucinagens and pharmecuticals. I need to successfully quick smoking and using pills to sleep nightly. I know I can, someday.

I DONT THINK ILL GET THROUGH THIS. AFTER MY PARENTS DEATH I FOUND IT EASIER TO USE DRUGS. CRACK COCAINE OF ALL DRUGS. I HAVE TO BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN AND WANT TO STOP SO BAD. I NEVER DO IT WHEN THEY ARE WITH ME BUT ONE IS GROWN AND THE OTHER IS YOUNG AND I HAVE HALF CUSTODY. SO WHEN IM ALL ALONE AND I HAVE NO ONE I PICK UP THE PHONE AND IT STARTS.I FEEL SO LONELY IN THIS LIFE AND NO ONE IS EVER THERE TO HELP HOLD ME UP OR LEND ME AN EAR OR EVEN TO BE MY FRIEND. WHICH I NEED MOST. IM 36 AND VERY ATTRACTIVE YET THAT MEANS NOTHING WHEN IT COMES TO FINDING A FRIEND. I HAVE WASTED SO MUCH MONEY AND IT IS FOR NOTHING. WELL I FORGET THE PAIN AND LONELINESS FOR SOME HOURS BUT THEN ITS ALL BACK AND IM IN TEARS AGAIN LIKE I AM NOW.I WOULD OF NEVER THOUGH LONELINESS WOULD OF CAUSED ME TO BECOME THIS TYPE OF PERSON AND KNOW ONE EVEN KNOWS.WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN THERE IS NO ONE TO TALK TO OR EVEN SOMEONE WHO CARES ???

Relapsed addict, 44 years old, tired, want life back….