43 Things Zeitgeist

I wrote this back in Jan 11th:

i have had a houseguest for 5 days. i took her on a vacation and basically paid for everything.

2 triggers:

-having houseguests

-going on a vacation/travel

over the past 5 days i have gained 5 pounds despite lots of exercise. i know it is from stress. i should be able to lose it pretty easily once i am back in my regular routine.

not sure… should i just avoid houseguests and travel in the future? these things are nice and important to be part of regular life… but i guess if people come and visit me they could stay in the hostel or something…

or maybe only have somebody stay with me if i know they are really doing really well and totally healthy.

jil kept talking about how she had been gaining weight. and she ate really badly, pizza and junk food, snacks etc. and her body was damaged, she couldn’t hike.

it wasn’t fun. so maybe i can check out the situation first. my friend carl has wanted to stay as a houseguest but he has big issues with depression and i don’t want him to stay as a houseguest.

and travel… i thought big sur would be ok but it was just hard having jil there… i can’t blame her for everything because it is hard changing your routine. maybe travel is just stress ful.

this time when she visited i had other priorities, like instead of trying to make things as comfortable as possible for my houseguest (she arrrived tuesday night and today is wed) I instead focused on taking care of myself… I went to yoga last night, and today we did go to the disc golf course which was what she wanted, but then she wanted to finish the course but i didn’t so we only did half of it.

then she was so upset she was saying “oh, maybe i should take a cab home [from the course]”

but she ended up getting a ride home with me

i mean, i paid the 2$ for the parking, and i cooked her breakfast and made her an amazing lunch and everything.

besides she was sick and gave me some kind of bug, i am already sneezing. ugh.

sooo...  it was really stressful.  we were arguing all the time.

basically, i think i can’t handle having houseguests. no mas houseguests!!!

:(

which is super sad. i have this big house (3 bedrooms) which would be perfect for having houseguests…

but maybe just not jil. or carl.

maybe only totally healthy, relaxing people. and before i invite someone i have to really do a clear inventory in my head and journal about it and make a plan and really, really think about whether i am ready for it and if i can handle it financially etc etc.

i mean with jil it is kind of a burden.

maybe there are people out there who would be good houseguests… take me out for dinner, clean up (i mean jil tries to clean up but she leaves dirt on the dishes…)

sooo…

yea.

plan for next time i have houseguests:

before issuing an invitation THINK IT OVER (at least overnight)
and journal, write lists, plan a budget… etc.

I said this and my sister died of laughter.

Well I’m really irritated right now, some people just…ahhh!!!!! I want stream at their face and tell them how retarded they are.going to meditate later, Maby tonight. I can feel my wings in their waiting to come out! I guess I kinda made a half friend today. Nothing much going on right now, whatever and stuff.

Yesterday’s practice was a growing practice.

I felt completely worked over. My legs felt it. My arms and shoulders wanted to quit early.

I did not let them.

And, thus, after an intense flow practice, I tried out crow again. A simple yet difficult arm balance.

I stayed in crow for record time. I was not rocking back and forth on my hands. My wrists felt secure. I was a CROW.

Okay, enough mystical inspirational talk. Seriously, though, yesterday’s time spent on my mat was an hour I won’t forget for a long, long time.

:)

1. My seeds are finally sprouting :)
2. Sunny weather whole week
3. Being crazy in love with my husband
4. Making spaghetti that knocked our socks off!
5. Finally telling my sister about my phobia
6. Nice conversation with my dad
7. My friend coming to Vancouver
8. Being excited about taking photos again
9. A lot of new creative ideas
10. Feeling stronger despite being ill